Cat Marnell, a beauty editor for xojane.com, makes your FishbowlNY editors sad. Why? Well, according to The New York Post, Marnell is leaving her spot at xojane because she wants to concentrate on doing more drugs.

Of course ingesting stimulants is nothing new for Marnell. She often wrote about it on the site and her posts were extremely popular. But getting xojane page views by falsely glorifying addiction was not enough for Marnell. She told the Post that it was time to move on, after she couldn’t deal with a company-imposed stint in rehab:

I’m always on drugs. Look, I couldn’t spend another summer meeting deadlines behind a computer at night when I could be on the rooftop of Le Bain looking for shooting stars and smoking angel dust with my friends and writing a book, which is what I’m doing next.

We would blast Marnell for throwing away an opportunity that many writers would kill for, but there’s no point.

Hopefully one day Marnell is able to fix whatever holes she has inside with something other than drugs. That journey probably won’t be as fun as getting high and looking at the stars, but we imagine it’ll lead to better things.